U Really Don't Know Me

After all this time it took a stupid as statement for me to really realize you don't know me .. WOW .. Now I have the confirmation I need that we don't need to be together .. We never did .. You see the thing you said .. You were actually talking bout me and my past .. If you had known that .. Would you have said something so stupid .. So hurtful .. And if you did know would you have said it any way .. Either way in my book .. You really don't know me .. How could you have ever cared .. When you really don't know me .. It really explains a lot now .. Every day I pick up a little new thing bout you that I never saw or thought before .. Now I don't want to see anymore .. I'm not suppose to hurt like this .. So I'm taking my leave .. Permanent leave from your life .. Cuz you really don't know me

Til Next Time

~Just As I Am~

Deadbeat

I am grown now .. Y in devil u wait til I got grown to want to play daddy .. Where were u when I was growing up & needed u the most .. Yes my mother is Evil .. But I couldn't even see an effort on your part .. Now that I'm grown u want to try to put me on the straight & narrow like I'm a child .. Is this the same straight & narrow that u put my knuckle head brother on ... Hmmm .. Now he's locked up .. No father dear I really don't need u these days .. I really gave up when I came to u asking to help pay my rent cuz I didnt have it .. I wasn't working at time u no .. All u offered me was a pitiful I don't have it & $20 .. Yeah I took the money .. I wasn't crazy .. But I knew u had money to help me to .. U just got ur settlement money .. Don't get me wrong I would have love to have been given chuck of it .. But all I wanted was my rent paid .. So me and your grandchildren wouldnt be on
the street .. But I couldn't get that .. Wit ur girl friend wit bad wig grinning at me ... WOW .. Now I'm back on my feet .. Plan to stay that way .. But u don't burn bridges .. I cut some ppl places and things out my life since that day .. U ran into me in Wal Mart .. Ur lil girl friend pass by u and didn't even blink twice if at all in ur direction .. I ask isn't that ur girl friend .. U roll ur eyes .. Then I say .. O money gone now me and ur grandkids couldn't even get a dime .. Damn shame .. So now u want to be all up under me .. Trying to run my life .. No thanks .. I'll pass .. Cuz when I really need u .. As always u were never there ..

Til next time

~Just As I Am~

I'm Back

I'm back haven't been on here in a minute. I think I should start using my blog on the regular to keep me from holding all my feeling inside and to keep me from cracking up doing that. Some time I will be blogging from my phone. I just love my BB. so if the blog looks weird that is why. Feel free to comment. I know how to use the delete if you get outrageous ... But all in all the blog I'm going to be about my feelings and how i feeling at the moment. Not to offend anyone. But if the shoe fits it is what it is ...


Til Next Time

~Just As I Am~